Just a few pictures of my little love!

A nightly recap!

I have decided this will be my journal. Not that I will be putting any incredibly personal information on here; I am not comfortable with that nor do I want people reading too much information about me. But, I am a quicker typer than I am a writer and this is so much easier to keep up. I have nothing on my mind but Luke and love right now; it's probably annoying to my friends and family, (though they would never say this because they are wonderful and love me no matter how obsessively annoying I become). But, I can't think about anything else; it's making me tired and restless, but I can't imagine feeling any way else. The excitement, the thrill, the passion, the romance, and the amazing adrenaline that pumps through every time I think about him or things he says and does for me just shakes me to the core. And all in a blissfully wonderful way! It's a crazy array of emotions, I tell you. All those who have been in love know exactly how that big jumble of words translates into the emotions you feel. Crazy and wonderful at the same time. What a concept! Anyhow, I am just getting all the things in my life in order so that he and I can be ready when the time comes. In any case, I need to sleep...gots to work in the morning!

Just some thoughts!

Did anybody notice some of the crazy ideas some people have about how the world should be run? I am not going to express my opinions right this moment because I am exhausted and can't form a coherent thought right now, but I can't believe some of the ideas, opinions and thoughts people have about how this world should run; what is acceptable and what is considered "uncool"; and finally, what makes sense about how a woman should be and how they shouldn't. I don't this mean this last statement in a feministic way; I mean it in a "save the families" way. I will explain some other time. In any case, as an update: I am still head overs heels in love and will always be. I have found my other half! I don't think it has truly hit me as to the magnitude of the love I feel for Luke, but it's amazing in any case. I am scheming, plotting and planning the future and it's freaking awesome. SO MUCH FUN! Anyhow, I love you all and I am going to be enjoying putting my thoughts in print; it makes life so much easier for me. I am not a great orator, but I can brag a bit and say I am a pretty good writer. We will see! Good night!

Love as I have experienced it!

So...for the first time in my entire life, I am experiencing love! It's crazy, mind altering and so incredibly wonderful! It's ethereal, insane, scary as all get out and one of most amazing experiences a human being can encounter. I didn't know it was coming; it happened when I least expected it and it totally caught me off guard. I was looking for it for two years, and couldn't find it. I got tired of looking and decided it wasn't worth it anymore. That's when it came from the last place I thought to look. I thought I was always going to meet someone in college, someone I didn't know growing up. Lo and behold, I find myself being pursued by someone whom I have known for an entire decade. Someone whom I was crushing on for my entire teen years; someone who was too cool, too good looking for me. Then, all of a sudden, the tables turned. He was pursuing me; he was crushing on me and being the stubborn, relentless man he is, I finally decided to give him a chance. That was the best decision I have ever made; the scariest and the most unorthodox decision, yes, but the best. I was taking a huge chance on this man; he was WAY different than when he was in high school; more serious, more experienced with life and a lot tougher. But, there was something else that I didn't get to see until I became his girlfriend; this incredible caring, sweet, romantic, amazing, genuine side that I instantly found myself thanking my Heavenly Father every five seconds for bringing him into my life. His kindness, his way of making me feel like I am the only person that matters. I mean the world to him; he loves every part of me, inside and out. What did I do to deserve this incredible person deciding to love me with his whole heart? Me? I still don't understand it sometimes. I am no one special, but he thinks I am the most special. Why? He has told me and they are legitimate, wonderful reasons. Still, he amazes me every second...In conclusion, I am in love. I love him with every piece of me. I have finally found my knight in shining armour. My hopeless romantic fantasies that everyone told me can't come true, have come true! I know he is not perfect, nor am I. I know we will eventually fight and get annoyed with each other and yell and argue. But...I can't think of anyone I would rather fight with, annoy the heck out of, and argue with than him.